I dont know if anyone else ever gets this way but Im just itching for the next big thing. I want to create something with my hands. To feel the satisfaction of knowing that they are useful. I am itching to get to the beach. If you know me at all, you know how much I long and yearn to travel....in the spring and early summer -I must get to the beach AS. SOON. AS. POSSIBLE. Yet from about August through February....I long for the mountains so deeply I feel fit to bust. I my husband says I am a "grass is always greener on the other side" kind of person....but I see no harm in the love of travel. Though I confess I would rather LIVE in the mountains and travel to the beach rather than live in NEITHER and long for both! Where is the argument in that, might I ask? There isnt any.
Currently, it is a cold and rainy day in March and my baby is sick with fever and a cough while he naps and my husband has so brilliantly decided to make as much noise as possible (never mind the baby is sleeping) and then go wash his car outside...in the rain AND cold. Brilliant I tell you.
Back to the needing to create. I so love to be "crafty" I have all my life, long before the DIY movement or Pinterest was ever thought of as my mother can attest to via her draw full of loomed potholders and various kinds of knitted "goods." I recently threw my son his first birthday party (and then bawled like a baby myself as I rocked him before bed that night)---but back to the crafting, I created all of the decorations for his party myself and while I truely took great delight in making them, I have been left asking the Lord to show me how he would use these "talents"because I cannot resign myself to believe they are useless. I want so desperately to be useful to Jesus. :) We have recently read one of Max Lucado's books "The special gift" the sequel to "You are special" --both must reads with your little ones! God's truth that is easily applied to us from his books! Anyways, (*spoiler alert*) the main lesson from this particular book is that God gives each of us special talents and gifts to be used to glorify Him in His church of believers and help the poor!
I am raising one of his precious babies and my heart is so full of love for him and a desire to "teach a child the way he should go (and he will not depart from it.) Proverbs 22:6"....but I confess, on especially tiresome or "learning" days, I find myself doubting my ability to take on the task of homeschooling that God has slowly grown into a vision for our family. Even so we have quite a few years before that is a reality (so no need to get ahead of myself here!)
Anyways, I do want my love to create to be useful to the Lord, to serve Him in some way. I am just praying He will lead me the way I should go. I know it seems a bit silly, God using crafting to glorify Himself. But there is no small gift given and there are people dying out in the world right now...could I not MAKE them a blanket? I could certainly just go and buy one..... but would it mean MORE if I had made it just for them? Not sure. Just prayerful and watchful to be used where I am right now with what I've got. Perhaps a willing heart is the most valuable and useful thing we can bring before the Lord.
With that the baby is up and whining- poor little fella, Mommy's coming.
-Kate
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